@TRAIL TAILOR just emailed you=)
General update and a thorough confession:
So that mild concussion I had back in 8/23 wasn't mild after all. Post-concussive syndrome, depression, anxiety, anger, memory difficulties, speech difficulties, balance issues, headaches second only to an icepick, and ultimately slid my weapon in my mouth. Obviously wasn't strong/brave enough to pull the trigger. Surrendered all weapons, really fkn intense therapy with the VA and a level of support from friends/family I probably don't deserve. Meds seemed to make my mental/cognitive state worse than it was, so after 12+ months of compliance, I titrated off and started microdosing on a regular schedule. That combined with basic physical and cognitive exercises have made a tangible and + improvement.
Physically, I listen to my body now. Post mva, I thought time and staying as active as tolerable would bring me back to normal, that wasn't the case. It also didn't help being in our healthcare system and not having the brain power to know what was or wasn't happening. Right shoulder RCR completed and in rehab now. Left shoulder, left knee, cervical & lumbar spine surgeries in the near future, so likely 2+ yrs before I can start training to get my body back in shape.
The FJ60 project was frozen for a multitude of reasons, all of them associated with the mva in one form or another except for the shipping f'n fubar. Almost traded her for a clean 200 + cash but couldn't do it, can't really even drive much still. But she's still a go for an all-out build with Jason and SEMA 25'/26' is still an aspiration I have and one that I hope to achieve.
I don't get on forums much or really do much of anything outside of staying focused on my healthcare plan, so until I get better traction and ability to express what the fck I'm trying to say, I'm in ghost mode.
Appreciate the confessional. . .
Shane