We make our way to Observation Point and wait for the group to trickle in. Slowly everyone makes it to the top and gets out to stretch our legs and enjoy the view and accomplishment.
After a few minutes, Andy calls us all together; Tom has something to share with us.
Tom tells us that his son, Evan, was originally going to join him for the trip and they were going to drive Andy's 40 on the trail. A few weeks before the event, he passed away from a drug overdose after several years of being clean. He brought Evan's ashes to scatter at Observation Point.
It didn't really hit me until later that he and his son were enjoying one last trip together.
I asked Tom if he minded if I include this in the story about our trip, and if he would give me the details that he told us on the top of the mountain.
From Tom:
"Indeed I was bringing my son Evan along on one last off-roading trip with me at this year's 25th annual Rubithon. Evan had died from an apparent accidental drug overdose 2 weeks before, and it was only two weeks before that he had graduated from army basic training at Ft. Benning, Georgia. He was 21.
We've heard from many friends since his death, and it's clear that Evan touched a lot of people in his short life. He had a huge heart and he opened it up to many souls. He had the biggest laugh you could imagine, and a wicked sense of humor that sometimes took your full intellect to completely appreciate. He was a voracious reader on every topic imaginable there must be 300 books in his room on subjects ranging from history to science fiction to humor to religion. And Ill never forget his love of music both listening and when playing his various guitars. Music was one of the biggest passions of his life, and it was such a delight for his mother and me to listen to him play and sing.
But nothing ever came easy for Evan, and he had to scratch and claw for every inch of success he achieved, especially during the past 2 1/2 years while he battled his way back from heroin addiction. His most recent personal goal was to join the Army National Guard, primarily so that he could help other people. He didn't necessarily want to fight in a war, but he felt that if he could succeed in the army infantry and the demanding physical endurance it required, then he would be prepared for anything in life.
Evan had come home from Ft. Benning full of energy, ideas for the future, and money in his bank account. He had registered for EMT courses at our local community college, and was excited to be going on another Rubicon trail trip with me in a friend's borrowed FJ40. He was going on 5 mile runs with his dog several days a week, and was determined to make a perfect 300 score on his physical fitness exam at monthly Nat Guard training in another couple of weeks. So it seemed like this was a high point in his life, with little hint that anything was bothering him. All of which means that his mom and I are at a complete loss to know what happened to cause his sudden relapse after being clean from doing drugs for 2 1/2 years. Whatever demon Evan was carrying, he just couldn't shake it completely off and it finally got the best of him.
We had a memorial for Evan in the outdoor garden of the San Francisco Zen Center near our home earlier in the week of Rubithon, and we had spread much of his ashes on the side of a mountain overlooking the Pacific ocean the day before. Evan loved the outdoors and loved to do 4x4 trips with me. We have been on some fantastic trips together in California, Oregon, Montana, Wyoming, Nevada, and Utah, and the many memories from these trips brings me much joy. The picture here is on the bridge crossing the Rubicon River in 2008. So it was only fitting to bring Evan along on one last trip with me, and to cast his ashes into the wind at Observation Point overlooking a beautiful mountain range and a valley full of life."