Hang in there....I would be back in wyoming in an instant if I could. Remember all the things that you have to be thankful for - especially your family.
When I was going to the University of Wyoming, I met a girl and started dating her. A few months in, she left Wyoming to go home to attend to her family. In two months, she lost her grandma, her dog, and both of her parents were almost killed in a carbon monoxide poisoning in there house. She returned back to college after that christmas of '96. Flash forward to today....we're still together married for 7 years.
The main point of the story is her mom...she went into a coma after the carbon monoxide poisoning and came out with a few problems, but not too bad and just started having seizures two years ago. The doctors still didn't know what is going on. Every so often, she has a "break through" seizure, but they have changed the medicine and the dosage and seem to be on the right track. It takes a little while for them to figure out what medicine works out the best. Some will make you feel like a lump on a log, some will work.
Hang in there - it will work out...I could use a supervisor to put that 4bt into a 55...or the 4.3l vortec into the hilux, or...well, you get the idea...
bk