I am selfishly interjecting here because of you mentioning your one great dog. I've had 4 Labs and while they all were/are great, two that are gone were especially great. They hunted with me, did competitive obedience trials, were wonderful companions and especially loved to swim. I spread...
Completely understandable. The wound is fresh.
My dog Crockett is gone a year and 5 months now. I have pics and videos on my phone of him and sometimes I can look at them and smile and other times it just about kills me.
I am truly sorry that you're having to go through this. It's said that time heals all wounds and I pretty much agree with that sentiment, but still there's a scar left behind when the wound is this big. Sinister said it well: time and all the good memories. The better the memories the harder...