I quite Cope 10 years ago. I still have dreams where I am dipping...usually I am trying to find a place to rinse out and I can't.
I wake up with a horrible taste in my mouth, glad that it was just a dream.
No, I never wake up to find my toe in my mouth
Hang in there, sounds like you are through the worst of it. Keep thinking about the locker you will buy with the money you save.